Sunday, July 08, 2012


Hey, y'all!

I guess it was about time that I returned to this page. The lack of supposed interesting events in my life has kept me far from expressing myself here... but as an attempt to understand myself and let anyone who is interested updated to what is going on with me, here I put to words a swirl of emotions.
In November I left Atlanta, a city with five million people to live in Robbins, North Carolina, city of less than two thousand inhabitants. The duality and differences are incredible... it has certainly been an interesting experience. I left the big city already knowing my time here would be short, and that this small town would be transition for me... but it is really taking too long.
I left Atlanta missing my foreign boyfriend and finding ways of being where he is. Here in Robbins, things started getting a shape, I got a job working online and some other works came to my hands. I was left to build the money to get to Europe, where Josef (my heart) is and that has been nerve-wrecking. I was left to deal with learning to enjoy my presence, learning to spend true time with God and with a long-distance relationship. I have never missed someone so much like I miss Josef. If soul mates exist, he is definitely mine. We have our differences, but the connection we share in life and perspectives in general brought us together. We have suffered similar pains and seek for the same trust and faith when it comes to a relationship... I am praying for the day of seeing the man that stole my heart again - and it is finally coming!
I was brought to this small town by a Brazilian friend who I hadn't seen in twelve years, and  with a one-way ticket. She saved me when I had no one to run to, and for that I will be forever thankful. Robbins has brought me the life in the North American countryside, caring for dogs again, facing the loss of one of those same dogs, watching one of them being attacked by the dog of one of the selfish neighbors. Robbins brought me an angel called Pat that has opened her house to receive me and who has offered me precious mentorship - she is also a "foreigner" here, from Philly, so we feel out of place together now. Robbins brought me a different perspective on religion and on my relationship with God. Here I have started grieving my dad's passing. The same Robbins brought me different views on people's lives and reminded me of the fallibility of the human nature. I am a few houses away from John Edward's parents' house, who has just gone through a huge scandal of cheating his wife who had cancer, having a baby with his mistress and hiding her with campaign money - the detail is that I attend the same church his parents do. Robbins is the middle of nowhere and still so very close to Pinehurst, town with 53 golf courses and heart of golfing in the United States, with people earning millions, and also spending millions while being so close to illegal immigrants living in the same Moore County. Being here I've seen a lot of contrasts... on the outside, as well as of inside myself.
My time of leaving is coming. I am thankful for the time spend with God and for the people I met here, but this chapter is about to be closed. I have new adventures to live with the man God brought all the way from the Czech Republic for me to meet in Georgia. I am leaving to his arms from the same airport that was supposed to be home for him in North Carolina - Raleigh. I leave with excitement, but also aware of the things needing to be fixed due to the longer time I spent here. In this journey, I pray that God blesses me and remains opening doors... I pray that my longing for finding home ends in the Czech Republic.
I ask for your prayers as a new season in the Old Continent begins for me! Let the preparations begin! :)
Much love to all,
Helen.


... You're Creator and I'm what You've made.

Thursday, March 01, 2012

YES!





... You're Creator and I'm what You've made.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Love.

"Love is patient.
Love is kind.
It does not envy.
It does not boast.
It is not proud.
It is not rude.
It is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered.
It keeps no record of wrong doing.
It does not delight in evil,
but rejoices in the truth.
It always protects, trusts,
hopes, perseveres." (1 Corinthians 13)




Wednesday, February 01, 2012

Listradinho.



... You're Creator and I'm what You've made.

Declaracao.


Sei que sou muitas em uma. Vou a extremos pelas coisas que quero e nas quais acredito. Tenho fascínio por diferentes idiomas e culturas, a diversidade cultural é certamente minha maior paixão! Quanto mais aprendo, mais pequenina me sinto – e sou extremamente grata por isso! Tenho uma grande sede de conhecimento, e a cada dia que me é dado tenho a responsabilidade de aprender tudo o que é possível naquele curto espaço de tempo.
Amo muito a Deus, acredito em providência divina, em encontros preparado por Ele. Muitas são as licões a serem aprendidas nessa vida, e a cada um de nós resta a humildade de vivenciá-las, registrá-las e passá-las adiante. Somos transformados a cada troca de palavras, e cada pessoa que entra em nossas vidas leva um pouco de nós e deixa um pouco de si – lições são trocadas em cada interação.
Aos 27 anos, ao me tornar órfã com a perda de meu pai – que era o grande amor da minha vida e maior conselheiro, e eu já havia perdido minha mãe aos 8 anos – vim desbravar terras estrangeiras para me encontrar... precisei literalmente me perder para finalmente me encontrar! Cheguei nos Estados Unidos háa três anos como uma menina mimada, apenas com malas cheias de sonhos e saio daqui para descobrir novos ares e horizontes como mulher e líder, consciente do meu valor no mundo e honrada com as missões que me estão sendo dadas.
Abomino injustiça, falsidade e qualquer tipo de violência. A ignorância é fruto da falta de três fatores importantíssimos: humildade, conhecimento e bom senso.
Acredito no poder transformador da educação nas vidas de cada ser humano e da sociedade como um todo – no final das contas, é o único bem que nunca nos será roubado. O mundo precisa de mais livros e de menos armas.
Sou irmã da Gildete, Alice e da Patricía, tia coruja do Thiago, Diego, Diogo,Erick e Yuri e “mãezinha” adotiva da Lilibeth. (http://cockerssolidarios.multiply.com/photos/album/57/57)
Tive os melhores pais do mundo e alguns dos melhores mentores que uma pessoa pode ter em vida. Minha responsabilidade ao formar minha própria família será imensa – o legado deixado pelos que me precederam tem imensurável valor!
Nunca maltrate seres indefesos perto de mim... ou você conhecerá minha fúria – e meu sangue latino!


... You're Creator and I'm what You've made.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Transition.

I can truly sense God closing a chapter in my life and writing new ones. Yesterday I met a brother and friend I haven't seen in over ten years. I met Luci and Marcio still back in Brazil, while serving with them at Calvary Chapel Sao Vicente. They helped shape my first steps as a Christian and encouraged me to dream higher. The calling for their lives came, and with that, moving to the United States in 2001 to start new days... and I stayed there, knowing God would give me a season here. That came for me in 2009... I just never knew I would lose my dad - who was my hero and best friend - before boarding that plane to Atlanta, Georgia. Being in this country has been healing for me, and I've learned more about faith and walking with God than I could possibly express in words. In my heart, I dreamed about seeing again the people who were first lending me their hands as I got into dying to myself daily through professing Christ... that day came. I met Luci in July of 2011, along with my boyfriend - I watched the changes God brought to her life, her family, her children. Yesterday, it was the time for seeing Marcio, his family and his children. Here, God allowed me to meet the man through which I can see God's love and grace overflowing for me. God made the desires of their hearts reality... the same way He will make mine. I've seen the people who shaped the pillars, the foundation of my faith carrying the name of Christ in a foreign land... that will come for me. God will give me my family somewhere else, His heart is calling me to the old continent. I'll remain faithful to the One who loved me first.
He'll continue to direct my steps, leading me far and beyond.
Lord, here I am... SEND ME!











Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Feliz aniversario to my soulmate, Josef!

Today is a day of thankfulness and praise to my God for one of the biggest gifts He has ever given me: my boyfriend and best friend Josef. In a story that just this amazing God could write, coming from Brazil and Czech Republic, we met in Georgia, in the United States. We were introduced in a trip going up a mountain through a Christian Ministry for international students, Friends of Internationals, by a Kenyan common friend. That same night, as I was going through a tough time, I prayed and said to a Brazilian friend, "I've met my husband today".
We have our differences. We have our similarities. In all things, God's grace is present. In all things, God is taking me back to the continent where my family started, Europe, to form my own family and start our lives together... lives lived to glorify God.
In all things... God is faithful. An answer regarding a job and a box were confirmation of what our Father is doing in bringing us together.
Carino, I love you beyond words!
I'm praying for a life filled with happiness and growth shared with you!